|via How Joyful|
We all have our true selves inside of us wanting to claw their way out. But, whether it's a bully, a magazine or a television show, we refrain from expressing the innermost desires of our heart. And they're not even deviant desires! The desire to be loved, to be unique, to be successful...
Above all, to be happy.
I admit lately I've been feeling stagnant. Yes, I have a new job, I signed a modeling contract, I'm living in Southern California, I get to surf and my photography is picking up. Even with all that, I feel like I've become less tenacious in seeking out new adventures. I've become comfortable, physically. But mentally? There is a reason why I gravitate towards websites like Pinterest. BECAUSE MY LIFE IS NOTHING LIKE IT. I want my life to be filled with the beautiful things and experiences I see tacked up on display. I pin these yearnings almost as if pinning them means I've already accomplished them somehow. It shows people, "Look! I've thought about doing this!"
How actively do I pursue my own happiness? To be quite frank, the past couple months I might as well been comatose. I don't surf as much as I used to, I'm horrible at opening up about my feelings, I don't create much more, I don't take photos for personal pleasure as much and I certainly haven't been consistent with Davy or any other writing (not even my journals, which I have kept religiously since I was 13). I don't know if you have ever heard the quote, "comparison is the thief of joy," (by Theodore Roosevelt) but it accurately describes how I feel. I've compared myself so much to others that I've lost myself in the process. You cannot let comparison rob you of your honest-to-goodness authenticity. When you feel your thief coming, be prepared to fight back by consciously working your way through the situations that bother you. Don't let someone else's life rob you of your own.
Sometimes it just takes a good amount of thought and elbow grease.